Joe, Will you be with me on Thursday?

I am about to do something I have never done in my life. I am going to see Josephine Ghiringhelli.

For those of you who have never heard of her, she has been given a God-gifted ability to talk with people who have passed on.

She is also friends with John Edwards. Most people know who he is. Btw, he's at Westbury this December.

I have NEVER in my life been to a fortune teller, card reader, nor a psychic medium. Joe & I never believed in them. I don't know if it's because he was so religious and the Roman Catholics aren't supposed to try and communicate with the dead or we just never wanted to hear anything about our future.

But almost every night when I close my eyes I have been dreaming about Joe. He has been talking to me through my dreams. Sometimes it is comforting and other times I wake up with tears rolling down my face.

I feel like Joe is not at peace yet and he needs to say something to us. My last dream, little Joey was in it and he kept saying, "Mom just listen to what dad has to say".

This is the first time in my life I have ever felt the need to talk to someone who has passed away. I feel there are too many things that were not said and needed to be said to one another. I feel Joe wasn't supposed to die. He was supposed to be here driving me crazy until we were 90.

So, Josephine was recommended to me by someone who went to her, and knows others who have went to her. The people who went to see Josephine said she has talked to them through others who have passed on, and she has made a big difference in their lives. 

Truthfully, I am scared because this is so new to me, and I am trying to figure this all out. The dreams, not having closure, not feeling as I can move on, not accepting it, etc. I need to talk to my best friend and he's not here anymore. Maybe something will be said that will help me. I dunno. I just know that something is making me feel the need to talk to Joe one more time.

The other strange thing about this is that I was told it takes a very long time before you can get an appointment with her. I called and left a message and her office called back last night to say that they just had a cancellation, and that a family from Staten island had a death in the family and she now has an opening this Thursday. Wow! Two days away. It doesn't give me much time to think about all this.

Now my cousin says to me..... "That cancellation happened for a reason, Gina. You are supposed to be there".

I wanted to take Kiara with me but I was told that if Joe comes through he might not say everything he needs to say because his daughter is sitting there. So I am going alone.

Wish me luck* I will share the experience with you.

Here's a quick story about Joe I will share.....

I remember walking in the Roosevelt Field Mall with Joe around Christmas time, and a psychic walked over to us and asked to read our palms. Joe just looked at her and said.... "If you were a real psychic you would know I am telling you to get lost right now". We both just started laughing and walked away.

Graduation Photos, Kiara & Family

 Kiara and her dad on Graduation day.

Kiara, Aunt Jen, ( yup that is my baby step-sister, who now has 3 boys, she's all grown up and gorgeous), Uncle Tal, and the littlest of her boys, Joshua.

Kiara and Grandma Vicki and Grandpa John. Grandpa ALWAYS makes funny faces in photos. He kinda looks like a deer in headlights. Don't ya think? LOL

I'm driving in your car, I turn on the radio

....... every time we hear your music we begin to cry.

You sang Billy Joel's "Lullabye- Good Night My Angel" to Kiara all the time.

The song has a new meaning to us.........

"You promised You'd Never Leave Me". ~ Kiwi :-(

I want to start a college scholarship in Joe's name

Does anyone know where to begin?

The kids and I would like to start a college scholarship fund at the Kings Park High School.

It would be nice if money could be awarded to a graduating student each year with the highest bowling average in memory of Joe.

Oh But Wait!!! The Kings Park High School doesn't have a bowling team.

Why?

Because they couldn't fit a lousy 4k in the budget.

When my taxes are through the roof to live in this town.

And our Middle School has money for double teams.

Anyway, a few year back I used to grant write for money for educational films. I guess if pull out my old contacts I'll find something.

Do I need to open a non-profit organization first?

If there are any readers out there that have the answers I am all ears.

I will post step by step of the process I will go through to make this happen and maybe it will help others and we can learn together.